Not just physically, but in everything else.
I'm tired of not being good at shit I want to be good at.
I'm tired of looking at other people and the only thing I'm able to see is what they have that I don't.
I'm tired of constantly forgetting to be thankful for what I do have.
I'm tired of always trying to be someone else in front of people who I, quite frankly, don't give a fuck about;
And I'm tired of always coming up short for those people that I do care about.
I'm tired of being forced into this perpetual cycle of laziness and procrastination and worry, all of which is making me tired.
I'm tired of wanting to please but never really being pleasing.
I'm tired of noticing but never really being noticed.
I'm tired of expressing...and it scares me.
Because I used to love to express, but instead of being understood I get mocked.
I don't want to give it up, but somehow it's become such that these days, self-expression only buys you looks that patronise and hardly those that encourage.
And most of all, I'm tired of doubting myself.
Now, if I could just find that 'Reset' button...
